God Knows Me
In my experience, the knowing of God is a long process of deep work, the cultivation of the most important relationship and one which never ends in this lifetime. How could it? Many many times I do not feel up to the task. I feel far from this infinite wisdom, this infinite peace, far from the infinite altogether.
My trust, which has also taken a long time cultivating and which still needs work, rests in the knowledge that however imperfectly and partially I can know God, God knows me in my totality, better than I know myself, better than any other being can know me. Isn’t this what so many of us desire-- to be seen, heard, known, understood fully? What human eye, what human understanding, is capable of this?
God sees all within and without. My human brain cannot really comprehend the infinite except in bits and pieces, flashes, and sacred moments. However, my trust in being known allows an opening, a gradual increase in understanding of this God, whose spark is within me and written into everything which is me and which surrounds. Each moment I open to the possibility of allowing this wisdom to become my experiential being, my capacity for this connection, for this knowing, grows.
God knows me and God knows you. For many subscribing to a pop-culture kind of spirituality, or none at all, this is bad news, though of course it is news that will be ignored by those making bad choices. God expects you to use that great gift given to us all—free-will, to align with what is real and good. To use your discernment to discover the nature of reality and to choose firmly and completely, even when it’s hard, even when you’re scared, truth.
Instead, many have completely abdicated this divine right, allowing others to interpret for them, to make the choices for them. They have aligned with forces of darkness and despair and subterfuge, both groups and individuals of such, who do not have our best interests at heart. They have done this because they don’t want personal responsibility, they don’t want to be individuals before God. They want to hide, they want to get by, they just want to be “OK.” Taking full responsibility for oneself, for one’s pains and choices as an adult, is a cornerstone of spiritual practice and yet how many really do this?
Many profess that they “don’t believe in God” but this is not something that they have come to after years of hard contemplation. It is a culturally encouraged notion that bypasses all such work. This refusal to take their place in the grand scheme of things (and it is grand and each person’s place is important) will cost them everything that really matters. They will not have the possibility of experiencing the eternal and growing into the full promise and potential of their lives. This is not a popular idea. Surely people who “didn’t know better” can skate by, surely this “old traditional religious” view isn’t accurate to our spikey, tech-driven, hyper-modern world. Surely “science” has made these notions obsolete.
The question is, did you not see or did you refuse to look? Did you simply accept the platitudes being doled out or did you look carefully at their sources, at their meaning, at their evidence? Did you refuse to acknowledge what is being shown you a thousand times a day in a thousand different places? The madness of the last two years, the biggest psyop in human history, has simply shown us in an outward, physical form, the choices that people have been making all their lives. The choice to know truth or not. The choice to turn toward the difficult and be known fully in all our nakedness and vulnerability. The choice to commit to looking honestly within oneself and by extension to know the world as it really is, or to hide and choose only what serves and placates the self and hope God doesn’t see.
To be known by God and in turn to know God, to the best of one’s limited human consciousness, is the greatest of gifts if you seek what is important, if you want to align with the highest within yourself. If you don’t want those things, if you prefer to be accepted by the masses no matter the costs to personal or global health and humanity, if you don’t want to make decisions for yourself, there will be a great cost. The extreme polarization in the world right now is not a mistake. It is a gift of clarification. If you weren’t sure what or who was good or what or who was real, the signposts are billboard-sized and they are everywhere.
Truth is an absolute, not relative. The idea of it being a matter of perspective is an old trick of those dark forces embedded into every aspect of our culture because it serves those who wish to control so well. If there is no right and wrong, no absolute truth or falsehood, how could you be accountable? Might as well just do what you want, what is comfortable, easy, self-satisfying, or what you’re told to do. Those seeking your destruction will tell you this and tell you what choices to make to keep you in that drugged and compliant state.
It can be hard to look deeply into what is being pushed at you by family and friends, and say “no, this is not true, this is not right.” It can be painful to look inside oneself and root out the weak and fearful choices that have made you shut down or lash out in blame, to turn away from real discovery. There is nothing more important to do. Your very life depends on it, here and now, and in the possibility of the infinite.
Whatever steps you take towards this freedom, towards exercising your free-will choices to embody truth, towards throwing off the shackles of your programming and claiming your divinity, God will see. Whatever steps you take toward knowing God, God will take a thousand steps and more, toward you. Through this expression of pure love, you can be known and by being known, you can know.